Being near this place, I can feel my joy pulling away from my body.
I shouldn't be this way, but my hope for my future is running dry.
I want the world, but every second that passes I can see it getting farther and farther away.
I'm greedy, disrespectful, and aim to disappoint- so they say.
Do they know how much it hurts, how it makes me cry?
I build myself up, become the hero they want.
I'm perfect, beautiful, always so thoughtful, then one mistake.
I'm back to being the bad guy- or so they say.
Can I be these two people, in this one place?